around the world

i throw myself through the world in hope of bouncing off of the truth occasional. My friend Dr. Avraham is trying to teach me the art of this active ponder pursuit. Recently I have been thinking a lot about this Jewish time called counting the omer. The Holy Lion teaches that this time is one of constricted limitation as we rebuild the partzuf of body and mind that we received the evening of the Pesach seder. I find this teaching incredibly intriguing on many levels. The most pronounced is the idea that some shift in the Jewish calendar is going to directly affect my soul and mind and even body. I obviously would like to know to what extent I am being affected and what role I can take to fully align and adjust properly. So this time corresponds to the lower seven midot from hesed to malchoot. These are the midot of relationship and as such are not expansive. There tendency is downward and outward so they correspond to constriction. This might be counterintuitive but they are very worldly attributes in the realm of interpersonal emotional human relations. The upper midot are all consciousness related realms and thus are more inward expansive midot. So i saw after a conversation with my friend on shabbat how exactly we fit in to this picture of the omer counting and the buildup to Shavuot and the big zivug coupling expansion of soul marriage with reality. So this omer counting is grounding out all consciousness in the numbers of the days and the stability of relationships with each other and with the creator. At this time we can expect no uplifting insights into the nature of reality. Even if these things do occur the main point of the counting is to realign our confidence and contact with the creator through faith and simplicity. This is the foundation of any good relationship, namely the simple acts of submission and participation in the game of Life/Love with the creator. There is no need for expansive knowledge of the intricacies and implications of the relationship. It is very simple. This is the secret of Rabbi Nachman's teachings about simplicity and why they are so fundamental. Before one goes into the expansive conscious exploration with another person, one must be stable and confidant enough to trust the other. This is both an act and statement of devotion to the covenant with God. It is through this faith and submission that a person develops a healthy relationship with someone. After such a relationship is built there will be endless amount of time exploring the deep profundities of your existence.
This may sound very simple but for me it was fundamental to understanding the necessary progression from immaturity to maturity. To jump stages and try to skip immaturity is just that, immature. So it is such a revelation for me now at this time of immaturity where the mystics claim that one should not engage in deep meditation on the nature of His essence. My tendency has always been to delve as deeply as possible into that expanse and I always scorned internally those who were "afraid" or not ready for this task. I see now the proper balance of grounding to flying . May I come to build a deep and strong relationship with all and know intimately a consciousness that uplifts all that I have committed to.
May we be blessed to know newly each day.
Adaman